Endless river

To see and enter the light is a most profound awakening....thus has happened to me today through chance, synchronicity, perhaps accident, though I hardly think that there is such a thing- but in one word through the revelation of God.I have entered the first steps of awakening into reality- in my life.
My soul feel light as a feather, as if scales have fallen from my eyes- I now see, as before I was blind through my ego, want, need and perhaps fear....yet what I feared the most to lose , I have never lost- for that is forever with me;the loss is to "my other self" that has died -metaphorically. I am so grateful....I have come to understand that there are no "endless rivers", for they all reach a lake or an ocean eventually.....thus I have. Leonard Cohen was wrong

Value

Funny human qualities - honesty, integrity and honor. Much us said about it; so few master it, in fact lie to themselves about it….ego edges all out including God. Yet we lie, cheat and betray ones we love most dearly. Yet- love costs not a penny, kind words, deeds, compassion cost not even a brass farthing, …yet we squander it away ever so easily without a fleeting thought. Then, sadly as time passes by....it becomes crystal clear the feeling of deep loss of the treasure we have allowed to slip by. When we have lost, that we have valued the most, we realize within our heart of what a blessed grace we have been gifted and have allowed to slip though our hands; love –like water we allow it to trickle though our fingers …..never to return- sadly this we do being fully aware of our deed, this act of pride becomes the very sword we fall upon. 

Later, we look back teary eyed, dejected, feeling sorry for our selves-totally lost. Filled with regret, pain and wonder why we are so punished by fate, by life and we blame God. The truth is that we punish our very selves for not seeing the beauty of love, of being loved, being valued and cared for without restrictions, without wanting anything in return-and at the time we throw it away with full consciousness.

Value love for often there are seldom second chances. For when it comes time that we are all stripped to bare bones before the divine and facing eternity, we will understand that the only law we were meant to follow, was to love ourselves and each other fully, without restrictions. Nothing more, nothing less. Often this realization comes far too late with tremendous pain.

Things lost

Funny human qualities - honesty, integrity and honor. Much us said about it; so few master it, in fact lie to themselves about it….ego edges all out including God. Yet we lie, cheat and betray ones we love most dearly. Yet- love costs not a penny, kind words, deeds, compassion cost not even a brass farthing, …yet we squander it away ever so easily without a fleeting thought. Then, sadly as time passes by....it becomes crystal clear the feeling of deep loss of the treasure we have let us slip by.  When we have lost, that we have valued the most, then we realize within our heart of what a blessed grace we were given, yet  we have allowed to slip though our hands; love  –like water we allow to trickle though our fingers  …..never to return- sadly this we do being fully aware  of our deed, this act of pride becomes the very sword we fall upon. 

Later, we look back teary eyed, dejected, feeling sorry for our selves-totally lost. Filled with regret, pain and wonder why we are so punished by fate, by life and we blame God. The truth is that we punish our very selves for not seeing the beauty of love, of being loved, being valued and cared for without restrictions, without wanting anything in return-and at the time we throw it away with full consciousness.

Value love for often there are seldom second chances. For when it comes time that we are all stripped to bare bones before the divine and facing eternity, we will understand that the only law we were meant to follow, was to love ourselves and each other fully, without restrictions. Nothing more, nothing less. Often this realization comes far too late with tremendous pain.

Ask of you

From "The  Clocks"-

What would I actually ask of you, simply a short word--WHY? There was no reason, I love you like no one ever has, yet you betrayed me . You thought that some fame would come out of your escapade within "reiki--frontiers"-ego at work. Darling no one cares, it is nothing--simply a speck of nothingness for which you forfeited us.

I have always loved you without hesitation, without selfishness and without possessing your soul--you thought otherwise.

Now--we have a second chance--let us use it wisely and with heart. You are so much like many, that I admire--not looks, not class and absolutely not for selfish reasons. You simply melt my heart-now at times the fleeting thought crosses my mind: is this the truth or are you deluding yourself, or am I deluding myself.

Allowing to be loved, letting guard  down and opening up takes enormous courage--but there is nothing to fear from that. It is something so very special, wonderful and spiritual that one cannot describe the experience. I know that you loved Katherine--but no other, except maybe me? Well, so you say.

They say true love wants nothing I return--yet they also say that when one loves it increase exponentially--never decreasing, but growing. Is this with you darling?

True--we have never met--but does spirit need to meet on a physical plane? To be consummated physically? Or is it simply God`s grace at play and in motion within each of us--dancing to the music of the eternal forever; you and I. Are we not forever entangled? Are we not forever one?

All I know that I love you --simply with no other flowery description as I am bereft of words. I am no poet--I am only a woman in love with you--your heart, your soul and your mind and I know that you love me equally- for that what we exist for one thing only, which is "love".

I say I am You

Say, I Am You

I am dust particles in sunlight.
I am the round sun.
To the bits of dust I say, Stay.
To the sun, Keep moving.

I am morning mist,
and the breathing of evening.
I am wind in the top of a grove,
and surf on the cliff.

Mast, rudder, helmsman, and keel,
I am also the coral reef they founder on.
I am a tree with a trained parrot in its branches.
Silence, thought, and voice.

The musical air coming through a flute,
a spark of stone, a flickering in metal.
Both candle and the moth crazy around it.
Rose, and the nightingale lost in the fragrance.

I am all orders of being, the circling galaxy,
the evolutionary intelligence, the lift, and the falling away.
What is, and what isn’t.

You who know, Jelaluddin,
You the one in all, say who I am.
Say I am you. -Rumi

My angel,my all, my other self

 This is late 2014....from a blog called / The Clocks...which is closed

Strange human life, strange we humans. Lately I am filled with peace, for some reason in my soul I have come to terms with love. Maybe it is is influence of readings I have done-but I am not as needy, or perhaps obsessed with the ideas of love. Love  just is. I simply love and that is entirely sufficient, it is what it is and how it has to be, to be  real--I do not need re-assurance, a testament or a daily assurance from you for now I know that love given is what is real, not the one received. Though I have to confess that being loved is needed to complement, or is an adjunct to reinforce, or to complete the circle,- but it has to pour out from the other`s soul freely, without any force, without any fear without any enticement. If it is otherwise it is not love at all but self delusion.

You have but almost entirely have shut me out of your life lately-but that is  fine. I know I haven`t done anything to warrant that, so peace fills my heart , it washes over me like a warm embracing wave. A  joy that that fills me completely-- I do love you and for some unearthly reason I feel serene, fulfilled and do not lack or feel neglected by you. I know that you love me in your own way--you are a person who crafts  words in the most spectacular manner, however words are words only no matter how beautiful when it is without sufficient feelings of spirit, without flow of grace from the soul that is the very spirit of God. I also  realize that at time it is from your heart at times a need to satisfy me and at times even a burden--but these are our human qualities, our human weaknesses and stresses of life in general.

Things that changed in a most peculiar way for the better perhaps, sort of settled in onto out way of life--why? Perhaps there has been some private messages from God for me,  whispering to me during the night- funny I dream much these days- never did before. I have been but touched deeply by a few writers- especially John O`Donohue and other great souls who have shone the light on reality in a way. So, I really have  I have no need of daily communication with you-though it would be nice, but not a need. I know you love me and I love you with deep passion-but I have acknowledged after all this time that we are different, yet the same. I don`t have this desperate need of you that was torturing me, ever doubtful, ever present-I am at peace. 

I suppose this is for a number of reasons--I now feel entirely free of the idea that I have offended you, have said something to hurt you or have done anything to feel sorry about. None of that exists--all I have and do is love you. Whether you love me back in words of expression is irrelevant at this point now--for I know you do, though at times perhaps you may even doubt yourself, but I know you do. You see--that statement : We only realize things in all it perspective, in its beauty, in its value in its passing. I feel I am blessed for I am constantly trying to be aware of it all, appreciate all and be grateful for all before its passing.

At times I feel that I keep re-visiting your letters to Naomi, it tells me that you are still looking still for something--I actually have found it darling. Why I am saying this--it is because of your letters to her were full of yearning of things which you already had, possessed yet did not realize, maybe you should read a few sometimes and contemplate as to what your really want: is it the chase, the challenge, the "new experience"which you think will be more fulfilling, or perhaps the shine has gone and there is some tarnish. Ah, but you see things of value always have patina--! I tell you darling-happiness, joy, love lies and comes from within one, not without.

At times your words told me that you are/were happy  and love me--and at times I feel you are going through the motions and were bored--we seemed to have communicated more and more through "haiku". But-I do not blame myself any longer, there was a time when I did, but not any longer. The ball is in your court now-whether you hit it or not is up to you.

We could have been talking via Skype , you chose not to--after all these years it seems a bit odd--but then, it is all up to you my darling heart--I am leaving it all up to you. We shall have plenty of time in heaven to talk of things that we have not discussed here on earth--I am convinced of that. This is a very comforting thought.

I love you my angel, my all--my other self

ZS

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Why now

Well just in case you are wondering it is time to clean house, I have so many blogs lying around that they need sweeping out.....well not that many really- under 10 blog spots- I shall bring to life a couple of more in the next while, so keep tuned.

Seeing that we have a tetrad- a blood moon, the Jewish New Year, the Pope coming to the White House and the expectation of the "end of the world" by a meteor or a Tsumani on the 28th of September and a few more titillating items on the agenda of God, I would like to enter the kingdom of heaven with a clean slate and conscience   - though in reality I doubt that anything will happen, but a new beginning for the planet; including myself as for all.

I think we have stepped finally into the energy of the next dimension which started way back in 1987 with the" Harmonic Convergence" - all this has taken a number of years to gel- 2012 was simply passing the halfway mark, and I strongly feel this is what the Maya and the other prophecies were fore-telling. We are deep into the change, the "Great Shift"is upon us finally. It is exiting times ahead of us-nothing is the old energy anymore. Us neither, I suppose. 

Activation, so to speak of those supposed "junk DNA" molecules -cranking it up to 44% from the 33% we are at now; guess some would call it "Ascension" maybe some "Rapture".

So- I have to do a lot of work in the next few weeks in more ways then one.