Out of the blue I find a FB page that I had opened ages ago, that I had actually forgotten about; but God works in very mysterious ways and keeps reminding me now and then of you- He forces me to look more deeply than just a daily prayer for you. I have the " Quetzal" blog I haven`t seen since I put it up, which contains the same. Here are just a few random entries-as you know, there are so many more; I stopped at "100 something"-maybe one day in my old age I will publish the rest, as well as my notes to you. I just have to "laugh and cry, and cry and laugh about it all again"-as Leonard Cohen puts it, as I read your awesome words; I hope you will feel the same way as I do. Really worth reading.
Words written say so much more than the spoken word. They are all your notes from different years; some newer than others. Mmmm so many! How did you do it-by magick? Mind you, I did a fair bit of writing also. It was my daily ritual like prayers-now it`s only prayers. You have become a daily bead on my rosary. Oh, what tangle webs we weave-remember; love, undivided loyalty?
I thank you for all from my heart. I do love you so very much- but you know that, don`t you? The Calla Lilies are for you.
Words written say so much more than the spoken word. They are all your notes from different years; some newer than others. Mmmm so many! How did you do it-by magick? Mind you, I did a fair bit of writing also. It was my daily ritual like prayers-now it`s only prayers. You have become a daily bead on my rosary. Oh, what tangle webs we weave-remember; love, undivided loyalty?
I thank you for all from my heart. I do love you so very much- but you know that, don`t you? The Calla Lilies are for you.
Inspire
-Beloved arany Cicukam
-Beloved arany Cicukam
You
inspire me. And that is the biggest understatement the world has ever known.
Why?
Because you are the lotus crown in the infinite sky of my heart, and I love you so damn much that I get to feeling like Taz, who could express that love to you better than I ever could, being the Tazmanian Devil and all.
Because you are the lotus crown in the infinite sky of my heart, and I love you so damn much that I get to feeling like Taz, who could express that love to you better than I ever could, being the Tazmanian Devil and all.
Woman,
you are my life, and were you the very cup of death so still would I drink of
you even unto the glory of the ages. Amen
With
endless love to my love, my heart, my little dragon.
Kisskiss...
Indigo
Kisskiss...
Indigo
United in blood
-Cicukam
I
know it`s a bit early...but when I saw us there so nicely posed, how could I
resist? We are one heart together. And one sky. Sometimes you might think that
I am just saying that...but in you the whole of me falls together. Flesh of my
flesh, blood of my blood. And for all my days will I follow you...ever my every
psalm of gratitude and of wonder.
Kissing
you softly, my angel. I miss you ever so terribly today and it seems as though
the closer we come into the surrender of communion with one an other the more
beautifully it hurts.
Draco
Indigo
Joystick
A big hug!
-S.......
My cicukam!
Ooooh, but still wonders never cease? My lovely baroness--she remembers but a single dream and it just so happens to be the very one whereof it can only be said that I ain`t even in it?! ROLF. I will get back to you on the dream anyway, my darling sweetheart, as well as 11:11.
A big hug!
-S.......
My cicukam!
Ooooh, but still wonders never cease? My lovely baroness--she remembers but a single dream and it just so happens to be the very one whereof it can only be said that I ain`t even in it?! ROLF. I will get back to you on the dream anyway, my darling sweetheart, as well as 11:11.
And
are you having fun with your brand new vroom-vroom? Makes me wonder
nostalgically back to the days before automatic transmissions. Behold, my
S...... with a joy-stick.LOL
Alas,
I must bid adieu for now. To punish you I will meet you in a dream beneath the
Jacaranda.You shan`t remember.
Indigo
-Quetzal
Why
certainly dearest! You may most any of my things anytime you wish. So the short
answer is yes..but the long answer will take me so far beyond my alotted twelve
lines that I will not now begin it.
Aaaah,
but I mingle my passion with your fiery breath. I burn. I burn. I stoke the
delicious amber of your wrath with my tail--exhort you to fry the creepy
critters to a crisp! My bood-lust is stirred. I remember the wild ride across
the Eurasian steppes, the joy of pillage and plunder. So have it my Magyar
queen. make Atilla proud.
Kisskiss
darling!
Draco
Draco
Unholy
-Edes
arany Csillagom
I
am missing you, rather, my dearest heart, my cicukam...but when you wax
philosophical, not only do you make my day, but behold--my tail takes on a life
of its own!
Be
well dearest. Even Christmas shall pass. Just a few more days and it will be
over. I am planning a little Christmas sermon for Assisi...a fiery little
bloodfeast, full of hail-stones and dragon-shadows, that goes without saying.
No Christian that dares read it will soon forget the stirring of the Elder
gods--let alone my personal take on this most unholy of annual occasions.
Kisskiss,
sweetheart darling.
Indigo-Sky Dragon
Indigo-Sky Dragon
Solstice♥
-My dearest S.....
-My dearest S.....
Aloha
my scaly angel!
Just
a quick note, in pencil, on this our second solstice together. Still hoping
against all hope that you will indeed receive a certain package in the mail
before next year. Meanwhile, I have become a writer in residence of an on-line
magazine with a readership of six million. A paying magazine, that is,contract
and all, for ten articles every ninety days.Let us call that a beginning, shall
we?
It`s
about time I was paid for the only thing in life I`m passionately good at. And
though I am a crusty old fatalist, beneath it all, I am also a dreamer.
Sostice-Sky
Dragon
Csilllag
-My deares Edes arany Viragom/Csillag
-My deares Edes arany Viragom/Csillag
You
know something, S..... dearest? You are just about the most precious lizard
that ever laid an egg! I thought I would let you know that, hmm? Even I get to
feeling right amorous on occasion, and especially today, on account of a simply
wonderful coincidence.
See,
I spent a most pleasant afternoon wrapping something that will be put on a
mule-train to you, tomorrow. For you, of course. And then your package
arrived...brought `round by a certain old witch whom I have decided is being
fed too well. That is neither here nor there...but that ravishing likeness of
you just made my day...(picture I mean)
and
then...it all made my day all over again when I placed you most prettily upon
my alter, betwixt the moon and the sea and an ancient tree, while merrily
sucking on Werther`s Original.
Like
I said, dearest--that is what I call superior timing. I really do not deserve
you. be that it may, my tail is superbly long and it knows not half my modesty.
Why, back on the home world I could wrap myself up in it from top to bottom,
all of seven layers deep! But now said tail is all for you--every last inch of
it. And I will wrap it around you like...sin!
And
on that pleasant thought
Indigo
Indigo
Muggles
-S.....
-S.....
Remembrance,
Peace, Compassion
...so,
like I was saying! The little details ..who can be bothered with cranky Muggles
when, between the earth and her Moon, riding the solar winds to radiant power,
you have an infinite universe of love within which to play at unfolding the sky
in your heart?
All
that, my puszta Dragon...and I have you. What more could I want?
kisskiss sweet dove. Hold fast My every breath is yours when we fly together.
kisskiss sweet dove. Hold fast My every breath is yours when we fly together.
Enjoy
your time with your Auntie...brush up on your Magyar. It`s only life after all.
Holding
you close, my compass star.
Ciao,
Indigo
Ciao,
Indigo
Birth
My dearest sweetheart-light, hope, promise
My dearest sweetheart-light, hope, promise
The
birth of light, of hope, of glory. Promise? Aye, you have my word on it.
Just now...checking up on you again. Missing you like mad and loving you
so sweetly.Kisskiss darling.
Just now...checking up on you again. Missing you like mad and loving you
so sweetly.Kisskiss darling.
Your
cuddly little fire breathing lizard...
Indigo-o
Indigo-o
Apache
-My edes darling Ducky-Wucky
-My edes darling Ducky-Wucky
Blessing,
May the sun bring you new energy by day.
May the moon softly restore you by night.
may the rain wash away your worries.
May the breeze blow new strength into your being.
May you walk gently through the world
and know its beauty all the days of your life.
Apache blessing.
May the sun bring you new energy by day.
May the moon softly restore you by night.
may the rain wash away your worries.
May the breeze blow new strength into your being.
May you walk gently through the world
and know its beauty all the days of your life.
Apache blessing.
And
ooooh ducky, I sooooo love you. Might this prayer come to you on the
wings of a goose. Might it keep you warm all day. Might it find you at peace
by moonshine when you return, even unto my heart and the fire of my love.
wings of a goose. Might it keep you warm all day. Might it find you at peace
by moonshine when you return, even unto my heart and the fire of my love.
Indigo
Frustration
-Quetzal
-Quetzal
Hoping
for better days ahead.
After
that little stunt She deigned to pull yesterday I was more than
ready to toss the entire consecration. Maybe blessed Saint Peter
would have thought it funny to nail Her in the head with a divine
coconut.
ready to toss the entire consecration. Maybe blessed Saint Peter
would have thought it funny to nail Her in the head with a divine
coconut.
Truly
this is the only logical explanation I can come up with.
Obnoxious and in seriously bad taste in what that ill-timed message
remains, nonetheless. And but for the hapless messenger --oh my dearest Cica!
Obnoxious and in seriously bad taste in what that ill-timed message
remains, nonetheless. And but for the hapless messenger --oh my dearest Cica!
Should
I let you off the hook? Throwing lit matches down the maw of
a rumbling volcano is ever so endearing, and I simply adore my brave little dragon.
a rumbling volcano is ever so endearing, and I simply adore my brave little dragon.
Kisskiss
Lucientien
Lucientien
Pressure
-My sweet fire-kitty--May the longtime sun shine upon you!
Aloha
my angel.Just checking in with you after that huge low pressure
system that moved across the state these couple of days--but you
know me and pressure. Otherwise, like you, I`m just coasting along...
in-gathering my disciples, lost in endless prayer, and one day flowing
into the next like fog and snow of autumn.
system that moved across the state these couple of days--but you
know me and pressure. Otherwise, like you, I`m just coasting along...
in-gathering my disciples, lost in endless prayer, and one day flowing
into the next like fog and snow of autumn.
A
sad and beautiful time, my thoughts drawn by the soft touch of the
raven dark angel and the slow, inexorable passage of fleeting years.
Time for the haunting melodies of Faure, hmm?
raven dark angel and the slow, inexorable passage of fleeting years.
Time for the haunting melodies of Faure, hmm?
Time
for sweet kisses of wormwood and long embraces, on which winds
blow.
blow.
Indigo
Snakes
-S....
-S....
Hi
sweetheart. Here is to wishing I were as dumb as an ox.So, I`m going
into sequestration for a few days to contend with my fiendish mind.
I do have a lot to tell you, but soughing was never easy, even for snakes,
thus will it have to wait.
into sequestration for a few days to contend with my fiendish mind.
I do have a lot to tell you, but soughing was never easy, even for snakes,
thus will it have to wait.
I
will be back soon my love--I promise. Pray for me in the meanwhile.
hard. For both mercy and inner peace. Tell M. to cut me slack before
I go over to the other side.
hard. For both mercy and inner peace. Tell M. to cut me slack before
I go over to the other side.
Meanwhile
I will be drinking structured water by the gallon and bathing
in holy oil, as well as the sweat of my unholy brow.
in holy oil, as well as the sweat of my unholy brow.
Kisskiss
my sweet cicukam.
Indigo
Indigo
Well
beloved , twas this or the Raphael with naked baby. I looked at
her for a long time and thought
...I know just what she is thinking, namely:
``Holy shit on a hot brick--they actually say that I`m still a virgin?``
her for a long time and thought
...I know just what she is thinking, namely:
``Holy shit on a hot brick--they actually say that I`m still a virgin?``
See,
no-one in their right mind actually chooses to be a warrior,
let alone god`s mother. So, when you can, you sit down and chill
with a bit of sewing. Know what I mean?
let alone god`s mother. So, when you can, you sit down and chill
with a bit of sewing. Know what I mean?
kisskiss,
my sweet angel.
Indigo ..
Indigo ..
Fritz
-Darling
-Darling
Oh
my dearest sweetest cicukam. My heart goes out to you and your family. Come
seek shelter there, in the pine-scented vastness of my solitudes. Look to the
stars and remember where little Fritz has gone to become a sunbeam of hope in
our heavens to shine his light in the outer darkness.
Be
it the cat or the goldfish that the cat ate...a death in the family will be
ever just that. But he was loved, and that was his gift to you. May you ever
honor it.
So
call me if you have a mind to, and we will do it together.
Indigo
Olie
How
?
-Meine liebste
-Meine liebste
Oh
how do I love thee? Hmm? In all of thy infinite ways, my fiery Baroness.
For behold, I woulds`t become jealous even of time itself. Indeed, my
ardor cannot countenance so faithless a paramour before thee, and now
as winter fast approaches I would to keep you warm within my embraces,
letting not so much as time betwixt our lips, my faerie rose of cold and desolate lands.
For behold, I woulds`t become jealous even of time itself. Indeed, my
ardor cannot countenance so faithless a paramour before thee, and now
as winter fast approaches I would to keep you warm within my embraces,
letting not so much as time betwixt our lips, my faerie rose of cold and desolate lands.
Oh
to behold yon flower of thy graces born in our Lady`s infinite midnight
burning. No flower wet with teary dew can to thy lips their likeness bare!
Indigo
Olie Dragon
Remember
-Darling
-Darling
Do
you remember when roses actually smelled like..well, like roses?
As
I was grazing about the vales of Avalon today, in my search for my next missive
to you, I chanced to begin, upon a whimsey, to make a list of my heroes. And O!
What a strange crew they turned out to be! Much like their captain and his
lady, woudn`t you know? And even two popes were even among the precious lot.
Saille,
by the way, is my sacred tree. Saille is willow, and with her branches I weave
our dreams.
Thought
I`d pass that along...just because..you know? In dreams as intimate as the
breath of the rose petals I sing to love my sweetheart on the haunted lakes of
yesterday and tomorrow, in the rising of the cold mists of the twilight...and
find that She is you. My Proteas, by the sea from whence she came all dripping.
Think
that canst match your madness with dreams. I hail from all times which are not,
and never were but the slow passing of a wizard.
O
O
Owl
-Oh my sweet Love. You are all the wonder of life itself.
-Oh my sweet Love. You are all the wonder of life itself.
And
while you were sleeping, I flew through the snow covered forest in the shape of
an owl, hunting for mice and for wisdom.
-
River-soul
Last
night, I dreamed that I was breaking bread with none other than Lord Krishna. I
had pitched my tent in the desert. He came to me there with Radha at his side,
and in my presence he had prepared the couch for our repast. I took from the
hand of Lord Krishna my sustenance and from Radha was I given a drink. I sat
between them. And I ordered the Lord himself to desist from his pleasures until
we were done! Naturally, he thought this outlandish request exquisitely funny.
The mortal dares command the blue-skinned god of love. Indeed.
I
had awakened, already yesterday, into a deeper dream.Two lines had come to me,
and beckoned--I know not whither.
``From
out of a cup of lapis lazuli dids`t I drink an ocean of stars; wisdom`s own
light in the roaring flame``.
Take
my hand , S....... And FLY.
When
I understand more of this I will use words to point the way. Until then I will
scream like a hawk against the cliffs. Or do you understand?
Never
will I leave you behind. For ours is the kingdom of the heart. And ours is the
power and the glory thereof, for now and forever, world without end. I Behold
the shaking of the earth as I rise in rivers of lava to claim the rocks as my
very own, stripped bare and slowly in their element.
Olie
S......., River-soul. I invoke you. Would you know of my love?
Angel
- My beloved Cicukam
- My beloved Cicukam
Tis
you who are my angel. And in you do I place my trust.
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