Space to breathe

 
Do you at times feel like sitting in your car, just wanting to drive into the sunset and never stop?  Never look back? Every word said simply drives you mad for some reason. You feel like you are on your last nerve and that is about to snap. Life these times becomes far too much to handle. Be that work, play or love-it all becomes too stressful and one needs a break, a holiday-and escape for a while to re-group one`s thoughts. Get the mind in order-if that is at all possible, I don`t know.

I have to confess that no matter how much one loves an other, one needs one` own space desperately at times to be alone.  One needs air to replenish one`s very being.  Space to think, be with oneself and to see things unfiltered in a clear light. The need  to be alone in time, is  like  breathing  in the open air not  as one breathes from an oxygen tank-as one surfaces from that circle of love. At times love makes one feel trapped, sort of breathless and the need to get away feels like a lifeline. Sadly-this often leads to confusion and the loved one questions the validity of one`s love-but, there is nothing to question for it is just a human need to want to feel free and untethered at times-it is a release valve for the heart-energy. This does not mean that love is lacking, neither that it is waning-on the contrary, in reality this action makes love more strong.  Yes-at times, love in an all encompassing capacity can kill when it is becomes too much-be that love for a lover, for a child or for a parent.This element is not specific to a lover at all, but specific aspects regarding-love, be that agape or philia or any other type of love that was described by the Greeks.

The key, as in everything, is balance-which comes into being within space and time. This is a hard lesson for many, including myself.  Often one tends to feel guilty regarding this emotion of wanting to be free for a while, but one should not. Look at nature- it needs to rest, to rejuvenate itself.  We also have the need to re-energize body, mind and spirit.  There is a need to unplug oneself and thus we grow deeper roots, expand spiritually and emotionally. We forge deeper ties to love and we realize our divine encounters with and within each other, as we observe our relationship from an other view point. A more panoramic vision emerges, as we pause and listen through spirit or more so, through the eyes of our higher self.

So this need does not reflect the depth of love we have for our beloved. Neither is it the gauge whereby we measure the length, breath and the depth of our love. On the contrary it is because we love so deeply that we feel that our energy is being depleted by the object of our love and we desperately have the need to escape and re-energize ourselves.  We put everything we have into love and in a way it frightens us to a point where we feel we are actually losing our very soul.  This should not make us feel guilty as it is really just a reflection of our unfathomable love.
At times absence does make the heart grow fonder.