Undetermined mission

These few weeks have been an interesting experience—I know all is for a  reason, and though I have not asked for anything things seem to be unfolding in a very un-usual way. I am still not sure—in what context. I certainly am not prepared for many things, including an other life, however the people that seem to be turning up in my life seem to suggest otherwise. It seems to frighten  me a bit--. But--like the river we flow on through undetermined territory, and unless we let go of those rock and be a little damaged in the process, we then just seem to mark time. So--letting go is the message.

What I am still learning—that each experience brings with it an entire new focus, and a new light. I am also realizing that I am very different in all ways—to many. No—not in an exceptional way—but in the way I need to look at my life and mission. I think much has to do with G, though it seems to be a most difficult situation—for before one can proceed forward, the other person needs to be awakened—he isn`t. Maybe now he is thinking about it—and his “over-soul” is whispering louder as time passes by with realization of past happenings, and his own mission. Be that we are connected on the same journey or not. But—for sure there is something to be understood and learnt—and at this time it is a bit blurred.

To all intense and purposes—in reality I should not be even there—for I am a bit uncomfortable at the situations—and I feel no connections to anyone whatsoever. Perhaps—now as I see—maybe M, but that is still far early to determine. The situation is becoming less comfortable-as I see no complements at all in anyway or form—and I don`t have the need either. So why am I here? I know I have to be, and I know I cannot quit.

My days as well as my nights seem to be filled more and more with pre-occupation with this—it is almost like a mission, yet I know there is no reason for me to be thus. I have placed it all in Her hand and do not ask Her reason—just follow Her voice.