48 Birthday

 

 Darling, sweetheart- my heart , my all--my other self;

Well what can I say--we have come a long way sweetheart Cicukam. It is an other birthday--and here I am writing once more to you. The past while has been hard--getting better, however forever is a long time. It often crosses my mind whether it was a good idea or not to meet up. Is it? What do you think. It is sad that whatever we had is now simply a memory--how could it have happened?

Anyway--I suppose the Blessed Mother has Her ways--I always place it in Her hands. At least now I am a bit distracted with my new found friends-some of them are rather nice, you may have some great debates with them--I am sure with your intellect you would always come out on top. But when do you not. It will be interesting to see you in your full blown glory--I mean the gnostic revelation. I wonder if you shall ever guess who I am-I certainly will not make the mistake of revealing myself. Is it for deception-no, not at all simply I want to know what is happening to you--my other self. But I know when I am doing well so are you--and at times we aren`t. Thank God that phase seemed to  have passed and I have somehow again found my way.

I was even away from God for a short time--well not away just asleep a little. I am sad at times when I think of where we could be today--and why we messed up. I also wonder if your life is better without my presence--and also whether I am still being thought of as you are. Am I still with you?

Today I shall say a rosary for you--I hope that you shall know that I am. I am sure you will have a great day--eating Wherther`s originals and having a few beers. You haven`t posted in ages--I was very concerned but now I know you are fine. Simply away fishing-I still can`t imagine you and yoga--you don`t seem the type.

You have so much to bring to the world--don`t become loose change--! I wish you all the best that can ever happen--especially health happiness and love. You are always very dearly loved never forget. You shall ever be present within me--you my angel , my all--my other self. You are so very special in every way--I wish we could have had a life together.

Be well Arany Cicukam may Our Lady keep you forever under Her mantle and may God walk with you every step of the way--may He at times carry you in the palm of His hand.

How do I love thee--I cannot count the ways--for it is beyond measure. Thank you for being in my life--, being my life--I am ever with you--today as ever before and ever in the future--till the end of time. I love you. I shall meet you by the Jacaranda tree at midnight my time--11pm your time--!Dream of me tonight.

Kiss , kiss my sweet, sweet darling Dragon--my other self;
Suzie aka Red Dragon

Long time--

 

I haven`t been here for ages and still even more in love with you, love never ceases to grow--an ever expanding process like God, like us within God--well I have been around and wrote hundreds of posts at the new place. I feel so good at where I am, the people are wonderful, the vibration is great and I feel I have arrived home. Not much has transpired the past few weeks--thought of you much--even sent a note. I know you are not psychic for you opened it--but it was a dead give away. You maybe back from fishing--I wonder--I know you think of me--how can you not. WE have something so very special that it is all tied in with God. So I am told--Mmm--yoga, I never really thought that--As for not using your talents, well that is almost a mortal sin. I think you did better amongst the mountains than the city--that is  not for you, you lose your soul to baseball.

 I am wed--forever to you, the ring is resting in lake Ontario, but I replaced it! Yeah. You? Birthday tomorrow--wow--how time flies--48. I have engaged you--you are so very predictable--no, I shall not reveal myself--now it is game time. Well, in a good way, I don`t mean to do anything bad ate all--but perhaps bring you a little out of darkness where you  have been into the light, my light--our light where we belong. I know how hard to fly with one wing--I am as well as you. Oh--what have we done to ourselves? Why?

I shall think of you tomorrow--infact today fro probably it is today you are celebrating--I am sure your mom is up from down south--I see the house is still not sold. Will it ever? Why are they selling--I do wonder. Then what with you--you are going with them--or back to your parents>?

I feel now different since becoming that which you are--namely man of the cloth. It does feel that I have changed in some way--there is so much in me that I can now share with like minded people--not flakes. I hate ignorance, stupidity and unrefienement--

God--how I miss you at times like crazy--beyond crazy, beyond understanding, beyond all--at time I feel you so close to me, within me. There still isn`t a day that I don`t think of you--now I shall even more that I have engaged you--we shall see where it leads. There are no coincidences why the actual subject surfaced in the forum--why it was posted, and why it came to me to arouse you from sleep.--yes, you have been--to everything--including God--well Mary.

Already half year has gone--will something happen. Yes it will, I know and feel it for fact--still unsure what--the gods don`t reveal their cards. Do they? I don`t ask--I am afraid to ask Her for it maybe something I don`t want to know--Poor sweet little Armand shall be leaving us soon, he is very sick--to join Fritz and Evie in the sky, become that star you spoke of. Sad--all life has to end to proceed along. All changes my Cica dosn`t it. We have--or have we? Maybe we just think so--this is an illusion and we are together some where in an other part of the universe having tea and scones--may a cool beer and making love on the beach on Rigel every night --listening to Leonard Cohen--and Canon, and being ecstatically happy. Fulfilled and filled with spirit--being totally one--I know that is what is happening and this is just illusion, a bad dream.

So all day I shall be thinking of you--having a great `ol time--drinking, partying and don`t forget to think of me--I shall be beside you, more so tomorrow, for that it the real day, so to speak. It is now the 3rd birthday without me--how very sad that is. Do you have anything I sent you--there was much, I wonder if Cicu still has my perfume? Maybe she sleeps in your bed--sort of  by proxy--I pray she is there and treats you well and kind--and kisses you all over.

Be well sweetheart, my other self--my very heart--I do love you so till forever and a day--that one thing is permanent. The blue rose is specially for your birthday--forever.

Kiss, kiss-Your very own Cica--and RD